Believe!

            Believe in yourself and your skills. I feel sometimes it is easy to sell myself short. It is easy to criticize and to discount my efforts.
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           But it is hard to say I did a good job. It is hard for my mind, body, and soul to be happy with myself.

          It is always I could have done better, I can improve. Never I did a good job and that is it, I am satisfied.

         I have a little OCD, I make excuses, I do not give myself credit for a job well-done.

         It is all a producer of stress. A producer of anxiety and frustration.

         Why not be happy in my work, why not shut down the OCD, and why not cheer for myself as much as I cheer for Estonia or Iceland?

         Sometimes I do not understand why I put myself through so much stress.

         Will I ever learn from my mistakes?

         Or will I keep wrecking relationships, voiding friendships, and making enemies?

         I lost 2 key friendships this Summer.

         Costly and a product of a poor job of managing anxiety.

         I will live with that decision for the rest of my life.

         I regret the stupid and selfish emails I sent.

         I blew my top over small issues and I cost myself big time relationships.

         I cannot go back, but I hope I will learn!

         I hope I will find the strength to rebound and finally learn to be quiet when I am upset or feeling stressed.

          Life goes on and I know I will do better next time!